Lost Of Virginity
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Richard and I moved into the living room
ourselves a spot on the couch. I sat on
while Richard sat on the other. The
burning brightly illuminating the dark
which all the windows were covered with
coloured curtains blocking out the sun.
I looked over at my older brother,
scanning his body. He didn’t look g@y, he
act g@y and as much as I really didn’t care
still so hard to believe that my brother
actually attracted to men. My brother
was a jock,
he played football and was actually good
at it, all
his friends were guys and he didn’t care
how he looked. Some days he’d get out
and grab clothes off the floor, throw
them on and
leave for school.
All my life I thought g@y guys were all
do their hair in the morning, put make
up on and
say things like Oh. My. God. And No she
You know, only had girlfriends and
a hot guy walked by, tried to change their
into a high-pitched screech. But Trent’s
that, he is the complete opposite, he acts
looks and is like any other straight man.
knows everything there is to know about
trucks; I mean he actually rebuilt his own
Chevy all by himself!
I think that’s why the fact that my
brother is g@y
bugs me so much. Usually when
to you is g@y, you know it, even if they
admit it, you and everyone else still
truth. Though, it’s not like that with
Trent; if I
were to even try to tell anyone Richard’s
g@y no one
would believe me, I doubt anyone would
believe him if he said it!
“What are you thinking about?” Trent
my thought, he sounded sad and yet his
was almost shaky. “A good way to get rid
to disown your g@y brother?”
“Oh shut up Richard!” I said as I threw a
from the couch at him. “Stop feeling
yourself, you’re g@y! What’s the big deal?
population of the world is g@y nowadays!”
“Does that means you’re g@y to?” Richard
jokingly, “That would make it so much
finally being able to get everything off
my chest. I
looked over at my brother to try and tell
was thinking although his face was
“Weird…” Was his only response.
“Weird? That’s all you have to say…What’s
weird?” I asked extremely confused with
Richard was acting.
“Everything, nothing you told me sounds
Adams I know…Other than Friday
that, you know he has never spent a
with a girl before…Usually he’ll take off
second the girl falls asleep.”
“You’re not mad?” I asked him, ignoring
rambling. “I mean…Don’t
Richard laughed, “That doesn’t matter, he
and I don’t really have a chance.” He
“Although, I don’t like the way that
What? What was he just about to say? I
while staring at my brother. Honestly I
when people start saying something and
change their mind! That is so fricken
“What were you going to say?” I prodded
He shook his head, “It’s not important.”
Frick that’s annoying! I wanted to scream
“So then tell me.”
“No.” He said sternly, “Just leave it.”
DING DONG DANG, DING DONG DANG!
“Saved by the Bell!” Richard said while
off the couch and running for the door.
“Richarrrrrd!” I yelled running after him.
I reached him just as he opened the
front door to reveal a short little blond
with bouncy curls. A large smile covered
her cute little face, two small dimples on
each end of her smile. “Hey Richard!”
She waved at him enthusiastically, “Mind
if I steal Jane for a bit, we’re having a
watching One Tree Hill.”
“No, please take her away!” Richard
looked over at me and smiled.
“You can join us if you’d like Richard,
doubt you’d like One Tree Hill.” Dorcas
laughing at her own joke.
I didn’t laugh though I was too busy
my brother really would like that show. I
before it would never even cross my
now, maybe he did…
“A show about a bunch of whiney
tell mom and dad. I can be like, ‘Mom,
g@y.’ Then they’ll say, ‘What?!’ And I’ll be
is Jane!!’ and point my finger as you all
I started laughing at my brother’s lame
before adding, “No Trent I’m not g@y,
I’m Adams ‘Craaazzzzy Stalkkkerrrr!’” I
“Okay, Jane…” Suddenly his voice went
completely serious. “If you aren’t
then what is going on, why do you keep
about him and trying to talk to him at
I completely stopped laughing as I stared
brother in shock, I wasn’t expecting him
me that and I hadn’t decided on whether
or not I
wanted to tell him the truth. Before I
to tell him because I figured he’d hunt
down and kick his butt0ckz, but now that I
Richard’s g@y I’m pretty sure he wouldn’t
breaking a nail just to punch some guy
scared to tell Richard because from his
earlier I’m pretty sure my brother likes
guy that I do. I don’t know how he would
he found out what truly happened
“Come on Jane…Just tell me, I’m going
up finding out either way and I’d rather
He had a good point. I breathed deeply
summoning up enough nerve to tell him
“It all started last Friday… when Adams
staying the night here…” I started before
to spill everything to my brother. I told
everything about that Friday night, how
was in bedroom waiting for me, how he
in the morning. I told him about the
closet, how he left me when Tabitha
showed up. I
told him how Adams showed up at my
the middle of the night and took me to
spot’ where we stayed up all night
he embarrassed me in front of half the
afternoon and then how I met Brandon
After I finally finished telling him
washed over me, it was the first time I
to anyone about Adams and it was quite
think I’ll pass.” He actually sounded a bit
disgusted by the thought, “You girls have
though.” He went back into the house. As
watched him disappear I decided I’d find
what he was about to say.
“Ready?” Dorcas asked pointing toward
2009 Volkswagen beetle.
“For sure!” I replied while following her
her car, “Cute car, honestly it suits you!”
“Thanks, my parents got it for me for my
“If you have your own car, why were you
today? You know when Brandon forgot to
you up after lunch.” I asked her while
the passenger’s seat.
“Urg…Thanks for reminding me, I can’t
just left me there! ‘Effin dink.” Dorcas
said as she
put her keys in the ignition and started
car. “He usually picks me up in the
school. The Brown’s live next door to me
pointless for us to both bring our
“Oh great…” I spoke sarcastically as I
seatbelt on and we pulled out of the
“You live like right next to them? like-”
“-Like jump out of my bedroom window
in their house right next to them? Yup.”
finishing my sentence and answering my
at the same time.
I sighed loudly while thinking about how
going to Dorcas’ house was a bad idea. I
want to see Adams and I had a good
it was going to be nearly impossible with
only being two feet away.
“Is that okay, Jane?” Dorcas asked me,
realizing my sudden change in mood.
“Yah, that’s fine.” I lied.
The rest of the ride to Dorcas’ house was
uneventful; we talked about school and
projects for our classes. It was about a
minute drive from my house to Dorcas’
and as we
turned onto her street I recognized right
which of the houses were Brandon and
It was a large white house with black
roof. The house had a complete circular
with a large fountain in the middle of it.
a large three door garage that seemed to
completely useless seeing as both
truck and Brandon’s SUV were both
parked on the
Just my luck, I thought to myself, they’re
Dorcas pulled into the driveway of the
next to the white one. Her house wasn’t
big though it was just as nice. The whole
was a pale brown color made of stucco
windows covering the front of the house.
was a large balcony on the second floor
from one side of the house to the other.
“We’re here!” Dorcas turned to look at
me a large
smile plastered across her face. “We
have ten minutes before One Tree Hill
“Oh, well then we better hurry!” I said
trying to mimic Dorcas’ excitement when
in reality I wasn’t very much of a One
Tree Hill fan. The only reason
I agreed to go was because according to
Dorcas ‘I didn’t have a choice in the
I felt a little bad, it was the first time
Dorcas and I
were actually hanging out and maybe my
chance in having a real friend and
already I was
basing our friendship on lies. Well,
didn’t lie to her, she never asked me if I
or liked the show. I’m guessing she just
seeing as almost all the girls at our
school loved it.
Within seconds we were inside Dorcas’
sitting on the couch in the living room
of popcorn in our hands. “Almost on!!”
clapped her hands together excitingly
turning her attention to me.
She was prettying much jumping on the
with excitement and yet I was just sitting
bored. I was just starting to yawn when I
Dorcas was still staring at me with
“What?” I asked, dumbfounded to the
Dorcas was obviously confused with my
excitement. “Oh! Yah…umm, yay? One
Okay…So I’ll definitely never make it as
“Okay? That was the worse attempt at
ever!” Dorcas stated while laughing at my
academy award performance “You’ve
never watched the show have you?”
“Not really…and by that I mean no.” I
finally admitted, “Never.”
“Really!?” and the excited Dorcas was
back, “Oh my God! You’re going to love
it, seriously!” She was back to jumping up
and down on the couch,
every so often knocking popcorn out of
and onto the floor.
So, the show wasn’t as bad as I thought it
going to be. I mean there were a bit of
girls like my brother said but all in all it
pretty interesting. It was nice to watch a
with almost as much drama as my own
life – it
made me feel a little bit better.
“You know, Hailey and Nathan’s
relationship, like in the beginning kind of
reminds me of you and
Adams’.” Dorcas said as the previews for
next week came to an end.
“There is no relationship between me
I informed her.
“Yah, keep telling yourself that.” Dorcas
placing her empty bowl on the coffee
table. “But you like him right?”
“Why does that matter?” I questioned
“Because we’re friends now and friends
other stuff like that.” She continued to
hassle me for the truth.
“Okay…Sure, I kind of like him but he’s
J0yst!ck!” I blurted out the truth came out.
A sweet little ‘awww so cute’ smile
face, “He’s only like that because he’s not
actually having feelings for someone.”
“Yah…Sure that’s what it is.” I spoke to
she was crazy and in need of medication
or at the
very least sedation!
He’s a senior at high school, he’s had
tones of girls and yet Dorcas was sitting
there trying to tell me he was being
‘shy’? I’m sure that was the
reason, I mean usually when you like
and you’re shy you decide to embarrass
front of half the school, that’s always the
way to go about it.
“Okay, enough about me and my love
life, who do
you like?” I decided to change the
“No one!” Dorcas almost yelled as her
cheeks flushed deep red.
“You’re lying!” I accused her.
“So what, I’m not telling you!” She folded
her arms and turned her head away from
“You have to… We’re friends now and
friends tell each other stuff like that.” I
smiled, knowing she had to tell me now
seeing as that was her own rule.
“Fine!” She turned to face me, her face
still as red as an apple. “I like….”
Grabbed the pillow from the
couch and pressed it against her face
shyly. She spoke into the pillow muffling
I took the pillow from her, “What was
that?!” I smiled.
“Brandon!” She finally said clearly as my
eyes widened and I stared at her in
“I am in love with him” she said as my
eyes unconsciously became even bigger.
To Be Continued