Hidden Diamonds – Classicpluz
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I didn’t know when I slept off. I woke up to find myself on the bed. My knuckles were all cleaned up and the room was in order. I stood up to use the restroom. As soon I was done and about to wash my hands, I saw myself in the mirror and I almost ran away. I had bags around my eyes. The area around my eyes had turned dark. My collar bone had become more obvious. I was never a fat person but now, I looked more like a stick insect. I never thought one week would make such a big difference in my life.
I turned to look at the time. It was 6pm on the dot. The house seemed so quiet. I lay back on the bed to think about my life. I regretted being a fool. Talking that way to Jason made me feel sick. How could I be so insensitive? I was just too overwhelmed with sorrow to think straight. I made a mental note to apologise later on.
I went to Jason’s room. I peeped in and he was sleeping. I decided to go outside for some fresh air. I descended the stairs gently because my whole body ached. I stopped at the kitchen to get some water in a glass cup. On getting outside, I felt a strong urge to visit mum’s garden. As I got closer, I heard a voice and I became scared. I went a little further and listened. It was daddy’s deep voice I was hearing loud and clear. I listened well and discovered he was speaking to my mum. I never knew daddy believed in talking to the dead.
I wanted to turn back and leave but a tiny voice in my head urged me to listen on. I yielded to the temptation without much argument.
“I really don’t know what to do with Jamille anymore. I mean she’s the only one who has caused us much problems from childhood. As much as I don’t want to blame her, I can’t help it. I just keep connecting the dots. She had difficulties walking as a child. She also suffered from dyslexia. And for heaven’s sake, she’s the only one who is so secretive in this house. She’ll never voice out her problems to anyone. She….”
Before he could say another sentence,the glass in my hand fell to the ground and got shattered. Dad turned abruptly. “Jamille?”
I retreated slowly before I broke into a run. I opened the gate and off I fled with no destination in mind.
I ran straight ahead till my legs hurt. It had already become dark. I just sat on the pavement directly under one of the street lights that lined the sidewalk.
After sitting for few minutes, I got next to myself. The mosquitoes began defining life on the streets to me . I realised that this wasn’t an American movie where kids run away and find help in a caring stranger. I got up and started the slow walk back home.
Shop owners stared at me like I was a ghost. I couldn’t blame them. I would have done same if I saw someone running like a mad dog few minutes earlier and later saw the same person walking gently and looking sober.
The walk back home was longer than I imagined. I finally got home. I pushed the gate open and let myself in. Edet came out to see who was at the gate. He opened his mouth to speak but I sent a dangerous glare his way and he closed it up.
I heard aunt’s raised voice from outside. She was obviously scolding dad. I walked in and shut the door noisily to gain their attention.
“I’m home aunt,no need to fret” I hugged her before turning to my dad.
“Hello dad” I smiled despite the pain in my heart. He was shocked to see me act so cool.
“Has anyone had dinner yet?” Dad’s brows creased into a frown as he sat slowly on the nearest sofa.
“Well, I’ll be in my room. No visitors please.” I ran up the stairs to my room. I could feel their eyes bore into my back but I didn’t care.
When I got to my room, I knelt down to pray for the first time since I lost my mother.
“Dear God, I’m sorry for all I’ve ever done wrong. Please forgive me and don’t judge me like daddy did. Help him to forgive me and Jason too. You know I’m only acting strong. I’m worse than shattered on the inside. Help me scale through this, I beg of you in Jesus name. Amen.”
I climbed onto the bed and laid down to sleep. “I can do it” I whispered into the darkness as I succumbed to the incredible power of sleep
To Be Continued