It became a part of me
I got used to it.
I wasn’t even thinking it is a bad thing anymore.
I decided if God will not save me then I will continue in it after all I’ve asked Him so many times to help me stop.
I was and still am an angel in the day a devil at night.
I’m always locked up in my room.
My Dad thinks I’m studying, he even praises me and sets me as an example to my sister.
I don’t even read that much anymore.
I read but not like before.
My life became a total mess.
It got to a point that watching those videos did not satisfy me again.
I wanted to know how it feels to be in that position.
But I know and I believe it’s wrong doing so, so I went for another alternative.
I know this chapter is short. The story is coming to an end. What do you think will happen to John?