The devil comes in many ways and many forms to deceive and use us to do evil, the ball is in our hands. We have a choice whether to allow him use us or not.
If my child didn’t die, what have I been mourning about all this long?
I remember the doctor clearly telling me I lost my baby, how is it possible that I’m seeing the baby with my two naked eyes? I asked myself as my baby run towards me. She was beautiful just like me. For the first time in a long time, I was very happy.
I held my baby in my arms, I gave her the tightest hug. I could feel her warmth beautiful hands around my neck. She had beautiful eyes that looked like Mark’s eyes. I wondered who the father of my baby was. She had both Francis’s and Mark’s features. What amazed me was this light that surrounded her, there was a bright light she had around her. She said “Dada” pointing to the light in the sky. I was still trying to process what she was telling me when I noticed my baby flipping out of my hands going along the light. I started chasing after her, I was screaming for her to come back to me. I have lost my baby once, I will not loose her a second time. I cried my heart out for my child, I cursed all I could. She went in the sky in the arms of what looked like an angel. She smiled at me and waved goodbye.
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“Bitch you think I will let you die so easily!”
Someone poured cold water on me. The cold water made me feel at ease.
I was still tired, my energy was drained. I could hear some voices arguing.
“What the f….. is going on here?”
“Sorry boss, she has been refusing to eat, she says she would rather die.”
“You are foolish. What do you think I hired you?”
“We have tried to force her to eat but she won’t swallow anything.”
“You are a bunch of stupid ass MF, I don’t even know why I hired you.”
“Sir we have tried everything humanly possible to make her eat.”
“If anything happens to her I will personally kill you.”
“I suggest you bring her a doctor, she looks sick to me.”
“I didn’t know how stupid you are until now, you think I would risk my life like that?”
“It’s just a suggestion, your girl don’t look okay to me, anything is possible.”
“Shut up!! Nothing will happen to her.”
“Please reconsider what I have told you.”
“I know Mwila better than you do, she is a smart ass bitch.”
“If you say so.”
“Don’t be surprised to find out that all this drama she is putting up here is fakery.”
“Come on man she can’t fake this, this is serious.”
“Like I said this girl is a smart ass bitch.”
“I still have my doubts though.”
I was glad I heard someone in the background looking out for me. My health was worsening. I was feeling unbearable pain down my abdomen. I needed the attention of a medical personnel.
They woke me up, they tried to force me to eat, they opened my mouth, put food in my mouth. I failed to swallow it, I could feel there was something in my mouth but no strength to push it down my throat.
“Boss! Boss!,” one of the guys shouted.
“What is it?”
“I’m sorry to say this.”
“I think we are loosing her.”
“What do you mean losing her.”
“Sir if anything is not done, she will die.”
“I’m afraid so.”
“You moron!! Do you think I brought her all the way here to die?”
“Like my friend told you, this girl is not okay.”
“I will tell you what I told your friend, this girl is a smart chicken head.”
“Sir I can assure you that she is not faking this one, please feel her temperature, it’s very high.”
“Come on women are naturally warm don’t you know that?”
“There is a difference between that warmth and this one.”
“Then rush to the nearest pharmacy, get some meds and thermometer.”
“What kind of meds boss.”
“I don’t know, I thought you are the one who said she is sick yet you are asking me stupid questions. How the hell am I suppose to know?”
“I think she has malaria, I know what to get.”
“Hurry up, make it snappy.”
Some people are sick in the head, not even God can help them. I’m here fighting for my life because of one silly idiot who can’t understand the meaning of loving someone and being loved back. Sometimes I ask God why he allowed such people to invade my amazing life. People should know that love is a two way thing. If you love someone, they will love you back but if they don’t. It means they are not meant for you. Don’t force things, you’ll end up making mistakes.
The boy who went to buy meds took long to come. I thought to myself dying without my parents ever having the privilege to see me for the last time. How will they live with such pain for the rest of their lives that their only child disappeared without a trace.
It’s like my soul was in another world, I could feel people around me, I heard all that was being said, I just didn’t have the power in me to open my eyes, lift my hands or talk. Its like my entire body was numb. The sense of feeling and hearing was there, the rest was in a coma.
I heard the fool among fools pacing around the room talking to himself.
you see what’s happening?
had you agreed to be with me a long time ago, all this wouldn’t have happened. We would have been happy together as a couple with a kid or two.
fuck!!!!! if anything happens to you Mwila, I would never forgive myself. I would kill myself as well.
you see I love you so much that if I cannot have you, no one else will.
hahahahaha ohhhhhh baby if I can’t have you on earth, it means I won’t have you in heaven either. I guess I will have in hell, I don’t mind burning in hell so long I have you with me.
I loved you even before you were born, you are my missing rib, you are the woman God created from my rib. I know its you baby. My heart, mind, body, soul and spirit tell it so.
just hang in there honey, this fool is taking long to bring meds.
Hearing him say those words made me realize how much of a psychopath this guy really is. Whatever help he needs is needed urgently. The only thing remaining for him is to start eating from rubbish pits otherwise everything for his madness is put in place just awaiting final touches.
The guy who went to get meds come back, he was shouted at for taking long. He apologized for taking long adding that he went to another chemist to look for a thermometer. He was commanded to check my temperature. He put the thermometer under my armpits.
“Boss! Things are not good.”
“The temperature is 39.4, if nothing is not done soon. She will die.”
“What should we do?”
“You know what to do, give her the medicine.”
“She won’t manage to swallow it, she is too weak.”
“Inject it in her body then.”
“Sir I don’t know how to use an injection, that can only be done by someone in the medical field.”
“I thought you said she is dying, I won’t take chances. Find me an injection please.”
“You will worsen the situation, this is not the meds required for an injection.”
“Go back to the pharmacy, get the one for the injection.”
“We are not sure what’s wrong with her.”
“Just get what we need, I will inject her myself. I have used a syringe before to inject ocaine.”
“Wooooooo what? That’s different from this.”
“Do me a favor let’s take her inside the house. The maid will bath her and change her into clean clothes.”
“How is that going to help her.”
“Shashi!!! I’m still talking. Don’t cut me short.”
“Sorry to interrupt you.”
“As I was saying, let’s get her cleaned up. Go and find me a good doctor, bring him here. I will know what to do.”
That was the best news I heard since i got to that shiray. They carried me inside the house, some woman bathed me. She was scared to bath me, I must have looked dead to her. She changed me in clean clothes. I opened my eyes, she almost jumped a loop, she told me to relax. She was so nice to me, she put me on the bed. She then knelt down on the edge of the bed holding on to my hand as she prayed for me. I felt a sense of relief, now I know the meaning of “God never forsakes his own children”. The lady wrapped me in warm beddings. She later brought porridge and fed me. I forced myself to eat.
She was feeding me when a doctor entered the room. Wait a sec! I think I know this doctor. I have met him before.
Does this mean freedom is coming my way.