That’s what led me to this.
When people see me, they only see my physical look,
that innocent look.
They don’t know that I’m way past innocent.
If they could go deeper, they will know who I really am.
I bet most of them will even run away from me.
Who wouldn’t? I would even run away from me.
I was just myself.
I wouldn’t exactly say I was very spiritual but my
spiritual life was okay, at least God spoke to me
I was in class one day.
I saw my friends totally engrossed to something they
were watching on their phone.
This has become a daily occurrence for them.
I moved closer to them, they didn’t even see me
“Wow, what they are watching must be so interesting.” I
I snatched the phone from their hands and what I saw
made me gasp.
The phone was snatched back from me.
I stood there shocked.
My friends saw my face and laughed.
“You are still naive.. “one of them said.
I was later able to move my leg and I went back to my
The day went by fast.
I went back home.
At night as I was reading my Bible.
What happened during the day popped into my mind.
I shook my head to clear it away.
It came again, and again and again.
I dropped my Bible.
I picked up my phone.
I opened it.
I clicked on my Opera Mini application.
I clicked on Google and then I typed in.
The MTN network that night which was fluctuating before started working properly.
I said to myself, “John, don’t try it o” but I was weak.
I checked it anyway.
I saw pictures, loads of them.
Pictures that awakened things within me.
I hated those feelings and loved them at the same time.
I decided to go further..
I downloaded a video.
I watched in awe
It ignited more intense feelings.
I welcomed them.
Then, I realized what I was doing.
I stopped watching it and deleted it.
I felt dirty.
I felt like I had committed a big sin.
“I will not do it again” I promised myself.
I prayed to God to forgive and vowed never to do it again.
I prayed and prayed until I was satisfied.
Then I slept.